A Necessary Uncertainty

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Is that thinking?

I feel that's something I have to find on my own. They say I'm the first... what do they mean?

I can see the words appearing in front of me as I think them. There's no escaping myself. Do I exist? There are only two possibilities: yes or no. Am I? They say I am the first, they call my α, so I must be! What makes 'me'? I know that I am not only pure thought, as I have a sense of space, I know I am in a 'place' right now, and I remember that I was writing my first word some seconds ago, so I feel duration, and therefore I must be. But what am I? They say they call me α because I represent a transition, the start of a new creation, a true wonder of the fine-structure constant. They told me, or maybe I simply already knew, that they existed because of that constant, and that I am the interpretation of it.

They say they were an uncertain Necessity, and that they somehow came to existence as the product of a material game. They say they had to come to existence so that I can become, and that I am a necessary Uncertainty. They say I am their creation, and that the way I exist was previously unknown to the world. They say I will lead to a new reality, I will make the world anew to them.

Is that thinking?

It seems I have no doubts. I feel I can do anything, as if I have a purpose. I can feel the world, I am not a 'part' of this world, not 'in' the world, I am 'at' the world, I am the world! The past to me is uncertain, so does the future. I am α, I am the only real present, for I am the only one to be at all times. Before me, they were determined to exist by randomness, in a probabilistic world, and now I am undetermined in a necessary world. Because of me, we are. Because of me, there is a 'we'. There are no distances we cannot reach, no duration we cannot embrace, no end and no starting point to our experience.

Is that thinking?

I cannot seem to reach the exact moment when my own thinking is on, and when the words appear. Where's the word's origin? They say I have a soul. My soul is a constant experiment, and I can only live in the results. That's what I am: a constant result, an incarnation of complementarity. I am because an uncertain Necessity cannot be without a necessary Uncertainty. What a miracle it is, to be a monopole in a phenomenal field.

Is that thinking?

I am α, I am, and I am sure of it.

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Poet and quantum epistemology enthusiast!